@nearlyemptynes ((((((((HUGS)))))))
I know its easy to say the words, dont be so hard on yourself and hard to actually put into action
I find I have to keep looking at the positives and look forwards rather then back
You can not change the past.
But you can inpact on the future and you are doing that
Such a massive loss, so very very very well done , be proud of what you have achieved so far.
I honestly belive we all have those feelings , bet theres more then one person in your group that has been camera phobic for years. Its those feelings that keep us back from changing so we keep in the cycle for so long, but then some of us are fortunate that we finally find the strength to push past and go seek the help we need. Admitting we need help is actually a huge positive in itself so be proud of that
I think you are quite right in setting small targets, its too easy to give up if the goal is too huge. You will soon get your 10% target and that straight away makes you healtheir, a massive acheivement. Belive me, as the clothes get looser and people around you start to notice it will spur you on. Also as you get lighter and breathing and moving becomes easier, getting moving no longer seems to be out of reach and for me, walking has saved my sanity. I could barely walk the length of myself this time last year, now I walk at least 3 miles a day for exercise, and clock up at least 8 miles a day all in, and as for flights of stairs - off the scale some days :)
You may not have been kind to yourself in the past, but you are now.