XP assaulted me and is now threatening to kill himself

[FeelSOsick]

I haven't posted on MN in a long time because I was labelled a troll before but I really need some advice and I don't want to tell anyone in RL, so please don't just shout troll, I am genuine, I just need to get things straight in my head so I can decide how to move forward from this event that happened today.

OK, so the background is that my DS's dad was violent to me for many years but a year ago he hurt our son, I split with him and pressed charges, but beause of most of the really bad things he had done were over 6 months ago he only got probation.

Over the year my relationship with him has been up and down, against SS advice I still let him see his DS but only under my supervision as SS didn't have the capacity to do it for me, I don't know why but I just felt it was important that my DS know his dad so he can make up his own mind about him. he has been verbally abusive towards me meaning that every few months I would tell him that enough was enough and to get lost, but stupid me would always be talked around to give him another chance.

In the year we have been split I have had one relationship but due to my confidence issues I just didn't feel good enough for anyone and so split up with them shortly afterwards.

Last night after me and XP hadn't spoken for about 5 weeks he came online and spoke to me, was being really nice and for some reason, I really don't know why, I agreed to go and pick him up, In the 5 weeks we hadn't spoken I was so lonely because when we were together he made sure I didn't have any friends and now we are not together I still don't have any friends.

Anyway, he came over and we spent the night together and when DS woke up he was so happy that his daddy was around but as usual when he sees us he was picking fights, he kept picking at me and I cried, it was a mixture of me feeling low and his shouting, but he said he was going to leave, I know it was really stupid but I went and get the keys out of the door and told him he wasn't going to leave until this was sorted out, when i did this he grabbed me and threw me onto the stairs and then pushed me on the floor and wouldn't get off me, I bit him to try and get him off me which worked, he didn't actually hit me but i have a bruise coming on my arm and leg from the force he used. when he let me up because our DS was screaming I comforted DS and he just screamed at me, I unlocked the door and told him to go. I told him that I would be reporting him to the police.

Because of his probation if he did anything like this he would be arrested straight away and would probably go to prison.

He has been texting me since telling me that if I report him to the police he would hang himself, I am now in turmoil because I don't want him to get away with assaulting me again but I think he might carry out his threat and I don't want my son to know that his dad has killed himself, I have a friend whose dad killed himself and he has severe mental health problems.

I know that I have done wrong to have let him back into our life, and I know that most of this I have brought on myself, but I just need someone to help me make the decison whether to report him to the police or not...

[FeelSOsick]

*DV

[MissSunny]

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