I ran away from home when i was a young teenager and because i needed money so i sold my body.
The other thread in relationships atm has really annoyed me because with the experience i have it has not been fun and games and i feel as though OFFS is trying to glam it up when the reality is alot more dismal.
I actually worked in massage parlours, which most of the 'WG' population do, its safer because there are other people there. Although that doesnt stop what goes on behind closed doors.
I have, on my first day as a 'WG' had the guy take the condom off, without my knowledge and come inside me. I have given guys a blowjob, for them to them go outside, tell the receptionist i have over charged him and had my money taken away from me, i used to have to give nearly half of my earnings over for 'rent' of the room. I was scammed by the person who i worked for and she stole lots of money off me.
I have had to forefill mens sick fantasies about spanking me, being pissed on, treating me like a little girl (i was 16/17) Not all of them were clean, some smelt and were sweaty.
I have had to sleep in the same bed i was fucking clients in.
When i was on my period i would pop a spong up there and carry on because i needed to work for the money.
Unlike OFFS i did get into heavy drug usuage, before i did it it was just drinking and drugs but on a smaller scale, once i started working i needed to take more and more to block it out, which in turn made me need to work more. It was a vicous circle.
I am not trying to belittle OFFS experience, just trying to make people see it isnt all glam and it IS in fact something to be ashamed of, i still get nightmares now about it, i worry what people will think, esp if i talk about it in my sleep, i am scared it coming out as i have friends not talk to me after telling them. I haven't done this for years now and wish that i could go back in time and not have done it but i can't, i can only try to make others see that it isnt something you want to do.
However much you think you need the money its not worth the heartache it brings and the self respect it destroys.
I too tried to kid myself that i was happy doing it but i wasnt, i would never let myself orgasm with a client, one day a client who was a regular and really tried everytime to make me come, suceeded. I felt raped, i know that is a word that shouldnt be thrown around but that is how i felt. he took the only thing i had to give to someone outside of work iyswim.
being a 'WG' isnt a happy place to be. nor is the aftermath.