Today my "charming" ex-dp sent me some rather abusive emails one of which prompted this user name (name changer, regular but don't want it linked to other posts) as he said one of my faults is that I am too fat.
I am supposed to be going to the gym but it has been neglected over the last few weeks. I began explaining this to my workmate today and she told me not to beat myself over it. He had no right to dictate my weight or anything else about me.
We have had a lot of ups ad downs, more downs than up but I still feel quite gutted. We just had a holiday and I had the feeling that he was boiling up to something but he refused to admit it on holiday. He wanted us to have a baby but I admit I was praying that I didn't become pg. I didn't- thankfully. I wonder if this
Back two days, and now this. He reckons that I owe him money, that I've lied to him about various things (I haven't but of course you only have my word for that) and for each "lie" he is going to charge me £10 - I am not going to pay him this. In addition to this, we rowed before we went on holiday and to pacify him, I had to pay him £200 as a good beheviour bond. He said he'd repay this on the day we flew out. He repaid me £170 and when I queried the short-fall, he said it was in two instalments. Now he is refusing to pay the rest as he he says I had a strop at the airport and I'd wasted money going on the internet. most of the money was in fact spent on food and he insisted on me using the net. I do remember being stressed after the hassle of check-in and I bought him a drink, as he likes a drink before he flies. It wasn't a strop though.
He also took exception to my sister buying a Wii before Christmas as he'd bought my dauhghter a Nintendo DS Lite but I asked him to take it back as I felt it was too expensive for her to get from him. He did so and I bought one for her myself as he threatened to tell my daughter she would have had a DS but for me. He now says I should have stopped my sister buying a Wii (it is for everyone to use) as I 'd made him return his gift. I feel it's a bit different an auntie buying an expensive game to a rarely-seen bf buying one. I asked to buy the games off him so he wasn't put out. He seems to have forgotten that.
He is so angry with em but I honestly can't see what is so wrong with him that he can't see that I am not lying to him. My weight is a problem but I gave up dancing as he didn't like me being too close to other men. He cancelled my gym membership and now he calls me too fat. Go figure?
I can't talk to the Samaritans as they have better things to do but I don't know who else to speak to. I was sittig sobbing in my kitchen just now. I am such a mess.