This is my new thread where I am going to be STRONG.

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I will post crap on here instead of sending any messages.

Glad to hear it, NAB. Eminently sensible

I will not send anymore messages.

But OMG it hurts.

Hugs always taken. Sod not MNty!

Off to phone my husband and be nice.

Message withdrawn

You go Nab, you know it is the right thing to do. Spring clean is always the way forward x

PROGRESS!!!!!!

Nearly fainted when I saw I had an email. Relieved it wasn't from him.

Well done NAB.

Now I need to follow the advice I gave to you and stop texting mine!!!

Trouble is I don't text for a couple of days and then he texts me lots and it opens the wounds all over again.

Seriously considering changing my number to put an end to it once and for all. As someone pointed out on here, if/when he ever is free to be with me, he would find a way to get in touch.

I am not sure what advice to give you tbh.

If he did contact me I like to think I would keep it together.

My OM couldn't find a way to see where I was 15 years ago and I don't buy it that people will always find a way tbh. Obviously we have phones and ocmputers now that we didn't have back then in my day but even so.

That is the exact reason why I won't get a new number NAB - I would be terrified that if he was ever free, he might not be able to get in touch and that would really finish me off!

Don't do it.

I had thought about sending a card when I heard he was married but logically thought he won't be at his parents address. How much do I wish I had sent that card.

I wish you would have a tarot reading from the site I recommended NAB. I am sure it would make clear to you why things have turned out like they have and give you some guidance for the future.

Didn't feel right to spend Dh's money on something involving (imo) another man.

I know where we are going now. All the way to our wedding anniversary in 6 months time. we will have been together for 13 years on the 13th and we need to celebrate that too.

The only way I will ever contact OM again is if I am single and that will mean no Dh so I hope it doesn't happen.

Three cheers for MN!

see you there........

How are things today, brazenhussy?

I have to admit to a tiny bit of that my emasil wans't him but when I saw his name on my list I felt noithing

Looking forward to my birthday and our anniversary now.

We met 13 years ago next Tuesday

Thats good NAB - keep it up You will have good and bad days.

A little low here today due to the fact that yesterday we texted all day and even had a conversation about us being together properly. Then last night I was on MSN and he logged in. He was on for an hour and a half and didn't even say hello

I messaged 'hello' and he just replied that he was on checking his emails (for an hour and a half???!!!) then logged out without even saying goodnight

He hasn't texted today and I am ADAMENT I will not text him no matter what!

Stick to it!

I told a friend today I would rather have one more year with DH than 50 with OM.

NAB- don't make the mistake of thinking bad thoughts about the OM- you are still just deluding yourself, but in a different way.
You seem to be all over the place with this.
I know that "self-talk" is a good thing usually, but you can't fool yourself- the feelings you had will disappear and be less intense over time- you can't force it.

But well done for what you have done so far!

I did have a blip today but it was a tiny tiny one. I just think about the fact he has pretty much had the last word in that he hasn't reposnded to any of my messages and I feel a bit used tbh. I put my marriage on the line, I think he got scared, and he can't even thank me for an apology email I sent over something else.

I am soooooooooooooo over him.

I wasn't consciously thinking bad thoughts about OM. It came to me while talking to someone. I love my husband and we are going to be fine.