I am probably being unreasonable but I need to let this out otherwise the kids are going to get unfairly stressed mummy and I dont want to do that.
I am so pissed off at my Husband, I know its Christmas but I am not kidding you he has been out on a 'do' every night bar one for the past two weeks... I have been struggling with two poorly children ( and myself) and he has not given a thought to me at home.
I just feel like crying ( well I have been) Im this sad , frumpy, fat solitary cow sat at home looking after the kids and house. He is off swaning about in London having the time of his life.
I ask him where he has been and what he has been doing, and apparently I dont trust him because Im asking????
He could have come home last night, but booked a hotel saying his work do would finish very late. But yet he has told me today that it finished at 12 am and then they went on to some night club till 4am! So he could have come home, but chose not to iyswim?
This has just tipped me over the edge, I think if this had been a solitary night I would have not batted an eye lid, the fact that he has been out constantly and not once said, Ill stay in and help/give you a break etc is crushing me. I feel worthless and like some stupid prat sitting here.
He does not see the problem and dosent see the need of reassuring me everything is ok, telling me what went on and generally grovelling for having a whale of a time for 2 weeks whilst I have been having the hardest time.
I know Im rambling, Im so cross. Im trying to get ds to sleep and calm down dd who is hysterical and not really seeing her daddy for 2 weeks and it taking it out on me
Arrghghgghghghgh, please be gentle with me.