I asked him to leave last week because of his treatment of me. It is due to his depression, but I've put up with so much over the past year, I can't go on like this.
If I didn't blame the depression for his actions then I would never have stayed with him. I know he is ill, but it's having too great an effect on the dcs and me. I'm pregnant too.
I don't want to be beaten up for asking him to leave. I don't want to be told this is all my fault. Please don't, I can't take it. Not today. Tell me tomorrow.
After asking him to leave last week we talked and I agreed to give him one last chance. Well, he's blown it already. Couldn't even last a week.
So I asked him to leave. He didn't fight. He walked away while I sobbed my heart out, without saying a word.
He has since sent a message saying that this is not the end, he will fix it and the reason he is so cold is that he knows I'm right and that he must do it alone.
So, he's gone now. He's off to find himself. And I'm alone with the dcs. The week before Christmas.
And all I want is my real dh back, not the horrible one who treats me so badly, the real one, who is kind and would comfort me and fight for us. I just wish he loved me enough to fight.
I don't have anyone nearby in RL to turn to. So please get me through today. I feel so alone