I've been with my P for two years and moved in together after a year. But I've made the decision to leave him today, he is away for a few days and I am packing up the house.
I feel so mean to be going without telling him,but everytime I try and talk about our relationship it goes nowhere. Each time I tell him I want out he cries and begs me not to.
He is gorgeous, amazing with my dd, and would be a wonderful dad, but ALL the time I feel like something is missing. . .He is completely non affectionate, we rarely sleep together and I so desperately wanted things ot get better and yet they don't. He bought a beautiful house for us to live in and now I am going back to live in my small flat.
I wake up feeling like I am next to a stranger, I have dreams about dating other men. But now the day is here, I've finally made a decision, I am v v v scared.
I've been on my own for years before P, now I will be alone again. Things made even worse by my dad dying after being ill for thee weeks last month. Even if you know you are doing the right thing why does it have to be so frightening?
Anyone out there who has done this themselves and are happier now?