Not really after advice, just need to tell someone what I've gone and done.
I have a lovely male colleague. We kind of acknowledge that there's some attraction between us, but have never done anything about it as we are both married....
Last night we were at a leaving do, a bit to drink, but not loads. I wasn't on very good form, because of a very late night the night before and wanted to leave quite early. He said he felt the same (he'd been at the same do the prevous night too) and would walk me to the taxis and then get his bus.
So off we went and he said he needed the loo. He had the keys for an office we moved out of a few weeks ago and is now empty, so as we were walking past he went to use the loo there. I went inside with him, as the alternative was to stand on a rowdy Fri night High St by myself.
You know what's coming don't you?
I can't recall exactly how it happened, but I didn't put up much of a fight. Some people might say it was nothing really, but it was a lot of snogging and some wandering hands and went of for at least 1 hour. I had a great time . No clothes were removed, but this is just not the sort of thing I do (completely faithful for 20 years)so it's a big deal to me. No idea if he set up the office thing with this in mind or not TBH, but he did rush straight to the loo when we got inside.
I had a text from him in the taxi, asking if I was OK and saying he wished he'd met me before I married I think I'm saddest at the fact I must have lost him as friend.