Let me just say, I know I'm being a bloody idiot but I can't help the way that I feel.
I had a brief relationship with someone last year who I'd been friends with for over 20 years (I'm 40, he's 43) and who I'd been friends with benefits with for a few years prior to that. I was in a really bad place mentally at the time, drinking far too much (he's teetotal) and because of me it all went to shit.
I had something significant to me to celebrate last night, and he was the first person to congratulate me (he'd previously blocked me after an argument). We've been texting back and forth and things ended up getting a bit heated/sexual. I do really miss him now that I've sorted out my mental health and the sex was absolutely incredible, I've dated two people since and they were a total let-down in that department, I literally cannot stop thinking about our sex life.
I've told him this morning how much I miss him and that I would like to give things another go. However, he's admitted he's with someone else. Needless to say I'm not impressed since I would class what he's done in terms of messaging etc as cheating.
Part of me wonders if I should tell her, but obviously that would damage any sort of relationship I might ever have with him. But I genuinely do want him back, even though I know I should forget all about him