We’re both mid-thirties, she’s a year younger than me. When we were kids we didn’t really get on that well, sometimes amazingly well, but mostly it was bickering. At school I was always more of a model pupil and she was more average. I got with my DH a while before she got with hers, she got in with the wrong crowd, dropped out of uni at one point and I guess if I’m honest I always thought I’d be more successful of the 2 of us. I guess I probably thought about this more subconsciously than it being in my thoughts much.
Anyway fast forward to now and she’s had 2 beautiful children, I only have 1 who I love and adore but it was a struggle to get pregnant and I can’t have anymore. Her DH is lovely and they have a good amount of money and a happy life.
I also earn well, married to my childhood sweetheart and live in a nice house but I can’t help but shake the jealousy off towards my sister. She’s very healthy now and recently told me she’s not drinking anymore and started running, she looks great. I just feel like I can’t keep up with her. They’ve got plans to do their loft conversion soon and we’re in too much debt to even consider doing anything.
I’m not sure why I’m writing this all down, maybe just to get it out of my head.
I think if I’m honest i feel our dad used to compare us a lot, and I guess I’m still feeling compared now. I dunno, I feel it stings more when you’re the older sis.
Help me get over this!