So I found out my partner was hiding poppers to use whilst alone, this made me feel like i wasn't enough for him and he needed something extra to get off, it was the shock that he'd even use it and not be open with me but not just that it was the hiding it and lying becoming sneaky. He said he wasn't going to use them anymore and apologised for not being open with me, it's now been almost a year I'd say since that and something just wasn't feeling right so I had a look around and I found poppers hidden away, he's on a work trip tonight and has taken them with him but he doesn't know I know. It's not even the poppers that is bothering me the most its the lying, hiding them in a place he's gone out his way to think of so I'd never find them. It's just making me feel really weird, I asked his yesterday aswell in a calm environment if there is anything he feels I should know about as I have seen a difference in his behaviour and being distant and not really interested in what I'm saying like he's not listening but acting like he is. He promised me nothing even though I said he can tell me anything and it won't lead to judgement just that I hope he can be transparent and he's chose to keep it a secret still.... How do I go about asking him as I've looked through his stuff to find the answer and genuinely feel bad for doing so I just couldn't ignore my instict any longer. I just don't know how to go about it when I've offered a safe space for him to open up already.
Any advice would be really appreciated 👏