pmsl, its ok i completely understand him, im not angry, he is right, i am a lunatic and he is stable, he just thinks i dont mean it as i am slightly off balance and should think about the consequences of my actions and chill out a bit. I am impulsive he is grounding. All fine, i know he loves me and thats the most important thing. He insists that the last year of my life has to be considered and i need to slow down. He told me not to worry not to feel rejected as he does want to be with me forever and i am the love of his life etc. Its all fine.