Quick back story; been with DP 9 years, he's lazy. When our DC was born he was hardly here. I'd do everything.
Sunday he made a comment about when our son was a baby (he was being rude). I said that he was hardly here anyway; appreciate this comes across as me being rude also.
Anyway, he said I should be grateful he's here more than his dad was around when he was a child. His dad was around and did a lot with him and siblings, he did however have a very good job but always home at weekends. I said to DP that he cannot compare himself to his dad; his dad wasn't home because he was working but he wasnt around because he wanted to stay elsewhere, go out drinking and cheat on me (this is all true). I maybe should have kept my mouth shut but he's extremely lazy and makes our I should be grateful for every little thing. He's nothing like his dad.
Anyway, 15 mins later he comes into the bedroom whilst I'm trying to sleep, shouting at me. He got his pillows and said he doesn't want to be a where near because I disgust him. He said I'm a horrible human being and a disgusting person. I should think before I speak. He just kept repeating how disgusting I am. I just said "ok" then tried to block out what he was saying.
Anyway, he hasn't spoken to me since Sunday night except to say last night that he was going to the pub. I feel physically ill, had stomach pains all day, headache and palpitations. The atmosphere is awful and Christmas is approaching. He's not someone I can communicate with. I'm not really sure why I'm posting except I feel sad and lonely.