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Please tell me this gets better

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Heja · 22/11/2024 13:23

Last week my husband of 15 years moved out after a very bad argument, saying he wanted a break. Since then he’s been quite cold and detached and not communicative at all.
For those who will say he’s having an affair…. He could well be and I’ve thought about it myself but I actually think he’s going through some kind of mental breakdown.
The problem is, despite having had a difficult year this still came completely out of the blue. Our relationship has always been fun and supportive and full of love. He’s my best friend. We have 3 young children together and my heart is breaking. He’s basically saying he wants to go to counselling (for himself) and then eventually for us. He says he needs a break and some space. He’s put a plan in place for seeing the children who absolutely adore him but other than that he won’t speak to me.
We have always been that couple that would be in contact a lot throughout the day, just texts and phone calls checking in, very loving. We’ve got a busy life with 3 kids and a dog and a big house to run that is very remote and I feel so abandoned and lonely. Sounds cliche but I can’t eat, can’t sleep, feel on the edge of a panic attack all the time. Desperately trying to keep it together for the children. Having to stop myself from texting him and asking why over and over. I’m beside myself.

I just need some help. Someone to listen to me who’s been in this situation. Tell me it gets better. Tell me I’ll get through this.

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Heja · 30/11/2024 23:59

The reason for the 6 weeks is because that’s the length of time for his counselling. It also gets us fully through Christmas and New Year. He’s used to being away up to 2 weeks at a time so it’s not a completely alien concept.
It’s hard to know what to do, however it’s a bit of a can’t win either way situation. I don’t know how wise it is for him to be seeing the children anyway right now and I feel he needs to miss them to understand the gravity of the situation.

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Eyestothehorizon558 · 30/11/2024 23:59

Whowhatwhere21 · 22/11/2024 14:47

That's understandable and I completely get how you feel. It's hard having that change in your routine and suddenly loosing the company of the only other adult in the house.
You need to try and do as much as you can to fill your time. It's good that you understand why he's doing what he's doing, but now you need to focus on yourself and getting through this. Stick to not contacting him if you can. This is something he needs to do alone and figure out for himself. If it keeps being you who reaches out then he won't be given the chance to know what it feel likes to miss you and your support. I'm a bit of a people pleaser and fixer so found it difficult to not contact and offer my help, but I soon realised that fixing himself meant me backing off and waiting for him to realise 'you don't know what you've got til it's gone'.
He is the one who's chosen to take time so I'd leave it to him to start the conversations. You need you're own boundaries though, he can't have his cake and eat it so don't allow yourself to be in the position for any longer than you can tolerate.

Fill up your days as much as possible, work, dog walks, visit friends, wonder round some shops....anything to get you out the house and kept busy. Find yourself a good boxset you can get stuck into in the evenings or a book, just something to keep you distracted from being alone. I think I spent a few weeks keeping out of the house in friends company as much as possible, then I suddenly hit a point where I couldn't be bothered and actually felt really happy being at home, enjoying my own company and doing things by my own schedule. Hopefully that feeling will come for you quickly!

You have absolutely got this and will make it through weather that ends up being alone or back with him. Just please make sure you set your own limits and stick to them. Yes he's entitled to some time away to get himself back into a good place mentally, but that doesn't mean you should have to sit around in limbo indefinitely. Set yourself a time limit, if he hasn't approached the hard conversations by that point then you have every right to say enough is enough.

A really fantastic, wise and helpful post. Mumsnet at its best.

rockstarshoes · 01/12/2024 00:35

I'm glad you've put a time limit on it & I wish you all the luck in the world!

If it doesn't go well you know you have done all you can & you can walk away with your head held high!

I hope you & your kids have a brilliant Christmas!

You know where we are if you need us! 💐

Apolloneuro · 01/12/2024 00:48

I think that’s a perfectly reasonable proposal. Please fill those weeks with as much pleasure for yourself as possible. Next 6 weeks, you and the kids are top priority.

WatieKatie · 01/12/2024 01:12

It’s important that you do what is right for you OP, regardless of others views and voices.

it is also important that you take these six weeks to decide what is right for you too going forward. It can’t be easy living with someone who is alcohol dependent.

Heja · 01/12/2024 11:22

Yes I agree, needs to be as much about me and the children and our well being as it is about him getting well. We’ve got some nice things planned and going to go to my parents for Christmas. I did cancel our New Year trip though, I considered going with the kids but actually I think I’d rather just stay at home.

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Notgoodatpoetrybutgreatatlit · 01/12/2024 12:01

@Heja
I've just read through your thread. I am amazed by how resilent you have been and I am impressed with your 6 week plan. I had a difficult relationship with my family growing up, so when I went to University I found ways to fill my summer and one year I lived and worked abroad in an English speaking country I nearly didn't return! I felt as if I had moved on. I think you may surprise yourself in 6 weeks with how you feel.
I do wish you lots of good things for the future and I will keep an eye out for any updates.
I think you are so strong!

Heja · 01/12/2024 12:48

Notgoodatpoetrybutgreatatlit · 01/12/2024 12:01

@Heja
I've just read through your thread. I am amazed by how resilent you have been and I am impressed with your 6 week plan. I had a difficult relationship with my family growing up, so when I went to University I found ways to fill my summer and one year I lived and worked abroad in an English speaking country I nearly didn't return! I felt as if I had moved on. I think you may surprise yourself in 6 weeks with how you feel.
I do wish you lots of good things for the future and I will keep an eye out for any updates.
I think you are so strong!

That’s really kind thank you. I totally agree about how much could change in the 6 weeks and I’m just hoping it’s all for the better. I’m hoping that even if after 6 weeks we decide to no longer continue our marriage, he can at least become a healthier version of himself for the children.

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sogsandogs · 01/12/2024 16:17

@Heja just read this whole thread and felt tearful reading your update. You are an incredible woman, mother and wife.

Like you say it's on him if he's disguising an affair.

You are showing love and compassion for your husband, whilst safeguarding the kids and your emotional well-being.

I hope he does the work and comes back ready to work on the new relationship you will share in the future. The old one has fobe, you can only look forward now, either with or without him.

There is an opportunity when something happens that brings your world crashing down - you get to choose what you rescue from the wreckage - comes with you to the next chapter and what you leave behind.

If he fails to do the work and your relationship ends, you can have some closure and the knowledge YOU did everything you could.

sogsandogs · 01/12/2024 16:17

*gone

YellowAsteroid · 01/12/2024 16:28

Treat him in the same way. Let him think about and experience what he is giving up. Don’ t make it easy for him.

NorthoftheRainbow · 01/12/2024 16:54

Heja · 01/12/2024 11:22

Yes I agree, needs to be as much about me and the children and our well being as it is about him getting well. We’ve got some nice things planned and going to go to my parents for Christmas. I did cancel our New Year trip though, I considered going with the kids but actually I think I’d rather just stay at home.

You’re amazing! You've taken control, you sound like you’re being very realistic and pragmatic about the situation and you are extremely brave.

This would be difficult at any time of year but particularly challenging at Christmas, having to be both parents when they’ll be missing him too. Make new memories this year that you can look back on with pride at your strength and the joy of being together with your dc. Whatever happens you’ll come out of this with your head held high, having done your best by your children and your husband. And you will have proven to yourself that you’ll be able to survive and thrive whatever happens next ❤️

And tell your MIL to step up and support him herself if she’s got concerns about your approach 😉

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