Heartbroken mug.
Not sure if.i need advice, encouragement or just to.know.that I'm not.going mad but here's the situation any comments gratefully received.
I'm 44 he was 27 we've been together almost two and a half years, lots happened which ended up.with family and friends hating him after he sent messages to my eldest son brother and nest friend from a Facebook account he said he never had. Anyway over the time I was with him I found condoms and lube in his car (we didn't use them) he gave me.some.poor.exxuse.of them.being transferred from his.old car when he crashed it but what were they doing in his old car even ? And he didn't get the new one straight away anyway ! Then he crashed the 2nd car ...woman stood beside him in pics he sent with what looked like.his.coat around her shoulders I thought maybe work colleague as he was on hisnway home.but i questioned it he denied having anyone with him .......but the passenger airbags went off in the car. Then I found viagra pills....I mean he's 27 ffs and he lied about when he got.them.said a month before but I found a.prescribed pack from 3 months before and there were more missing than the amount of times he had seen me. Every time I questioned him.about any of these things I was made to feel like I was in the wrong how dare I accuse him. Recently he was invited round he said he had football that morning and if he wasn't injured he would come.after .....on the day he was conveniently injured ....and everything else was more important than seeing me that whole.weekend he made excuses or was too tired but then could get dressed up.to go shopping, I got.upset and I asked him.if he was seeing someone else or if he even wanted to be with me. He went off of one how dare I call him names (I didnt) or accuse him when I knew where he was 24/7 .....admittedly he video called me all the time and always told me.where he was ....that doesn't mean he wasn't lying though ......I apologised and said I just felt like he had made up.his mind he wasn't coming over before the weekend had even arrived . He had a go at me and basically said he didn't feel anything towards me at that moment after he read my message to him. (He always told me he loved me , he persued the relationship with me in the first place). I sent him.a message telling him I love him and he said he didn't feel that right now. It cut me.to the core I gave everything to this man risked relationships.with my.kids and friends for.him.
Now things have started to settle.a bit and I sit back and look.at it .......
Two and a.half years .....I never met his mum or siblings or friends, he would never answer phone calls when he was with me....I never even knew the street he lived in never went to his house ...I only ever met his dad cos.we.used to meet up at his house once a week !!
Am I in the wrong for accusing him? Is it in my head or are the things I found as dodgy as I see them to be . He said he wanted a life.with me but I wasn't part of his life I was like some secret kept.on the sidelines .
He was muslim I don't know.if that makes any difference .
Long post sorry ....just lost right now.