I am 40 and have not one friend.
I have people who would say they are my friends but I always feel on the outside of everything.
I have tried to make friends in my place of work and have been invited for a few things but I always feel it is out of pity and because it would be rude not to invite me. I am so boring and lacklustre I can’t see why anyone would seek me out.
I am even more boring than usual when I’m with people I don’t know that well because I feel on edge and it makes me very uptight.
I don’t think I’m unkind or mean but I am very very dull and I think that’s the issue. I’ve never done anything of any interest and even though I keep up on current affairs etc I have nothing in my own life which would be very interesting to anyone else.
I’ve never fitted in but I feel like it’s got worse with age.
Do I just give up and accept that I’ll never have any friends?