I saw my partner again this weekend-I wanted to talk to him person regards to the weekend? but wanted to wait for the right time to bring it up, we had a really good day and I can't remember exactly how I brang it up however I just asked him, how come it annoys you going the wrong way.
He responses with 'what made you ask that, who have you spoke to, what did they say!'
I reassured him that I was just curious and then he mentioned about it wasn't kjay about going the wrong way it was about me not listening about not having maps on.
Anyway when I tried to ask him or tell him my side, he shut me down saying why am I trying to ruin a good day you always do this, end of conversation and called me a scumbag and c**t
Today again I was driving I decided not to use maps as we were driving somewhere local so I was more comfortable-there was about 6 or more cyclists ahead of us taking up the whole road, and another car in front of us, he started getting wound up. Cursing, I tried to say why are you so annoyed you're not driving. He then rolled down my window and shouted 'get in a f*n single line and than I said not to shout (again with baby in car) so he decided to honk my horn. Again I told him not too, but later as we were still following he shouted the same thing and attempted to honk horn again, I asked him to calm(I learned from my behaviour last time so I kept my cool) I told him don't worry once clear and safe I will over take, when I told him to stop shouting he said he would shout louder and these dick heads need to be told when in wrong otherwise they won't learn.
We finally overtook but he shouted and swore again as we drove past,
He also kept telling me when I should go and not go whilst driving which I told him before not to mention if he will get in my car, he then started saying that's because I am a shit driver I am a c**t to be honest I can't remember what else he said but in the end I said he needed to get out so I ended up dropping him home and driving home with bubba. Which I normally stay and try to sort. I feel guilty for going back home but didn't want baby around all that plus it was not good for me either and needed space.
I know I need to end things but I don't know how everytime he makes me feel guilty how I always reset our relationship I don't give him stability etc. I feel we are going round in viscous cycle and it's not fair or healthy on baby or me I can't deal with his bad moods and he is not able to communicate without shutting me down .
He is naive -he says things like he was going to book a holiday but he cancelled (I don't care bout holiday ) I even said how do you expect us to live together if we can't even go on holiday and he basically said it's different. I also said this is the reason why we haven't moved out or you don't see baby often enough, he basically said no it's because I don't have money-if he knew I do t have money because I am looking after his baby full time so I can't go work as I have no one to look after her while he works full time and only sees baby on weekends :/