Long story short. Friend used my phone for tinder and ended up getting a guy for the night. I don’t do fwb/fun. However I kept the account on my phone and started talking to another guy she matched with however thinking it’s my friend.
initially was just pointless banter but then I started liking him. Anyway, I couldn’t keep lying to him so told him after struggling back and forth for 3 days.
he was angry and blocked me, which is for the best.
but I feel so guilty for having done that to other person. I cannot believe I done this. I cannot believe I went against my own moral by lying to him for 2 days.
I wanted to tell him but everytime I wanna, I feel like it’s too late. And now it’s definitely too late. he asked me why I didn’t tell him earlier on, but I was struggling to tell, but now finally picked up the courage to right a wrong and take responsibility,
I had the worst night in my life. I was sick 3 times and my body was shaking, tingling, sweating, heartburn, flashy vision and I just feel so guilty and ashamed of my own actions. That I have potentially hurt his feelings. I know it’s only been 2 days but I feel like I’m gonna live with this.. I so disappointed in myself that I feel like I’m spiralling non stop and can’t do anything. I have not had anything all day in case I’m sick at work but now I feel like I’m going to be sick again.
Any advice would be good to help move on from this? I know I’m a horrible human being I know.