He's taken the kids again and won't give them back
Regardless of the court order
Because I used a solicitor and he demanded I speak to him directly. Even with the degrading messages.
He's holding them for the whole holidays, against the court order, because I would agree to his terms. Even though it says 50/50. He said no. I will get 6/18 days and that's it. He argued it's because he "misses" his weekend with them. But then I don't even get a weekend with them, next month. Or if we count the days he's "allowed" me to have, I'm only having them 2 days of the holidays.
I just want them back
I know if I message him, he will use it to bully me and say I'm the problem and to try and talk me back to him. I don't want to go back but he won't give the kids back if I don't.
He will just tell me I'm the problem
He won't give them back anyway
It's always been about access to me, not the kids. I've tried telling everyone and they don't believe me. It's not because I'm special or anything. It's because he wants to punish me for leaving him. Last time his friend beat me up because I wouldn't agree to what he wanted.
I just want my babies back. I don't want them to think I don't want them back. I don't know what to do. He won't give them back unless I do everything he says and then he will take them in the end anyway like he did last time, and I'll be forced to go back to him again. Everyone keeps telling me I don't have to go back. But I wouldn't leave them with him. I will have to go back if I ever want to see them again. I'm not being dramatic. He's done it before. He even tried to get me to unalive myself so he could tell people I'm mentally ill, and said if I tried to leave that I'd never get the kids because of it.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do.