My mind is a hell. I feel like no one likes me at all. Apart from family/husband I feel like everyone that has ever been important to me has deserted me.
I have had really close friends over the years that I would’ve done anything for. But as soon as I needed them (family cancer diagnosis),they were not around. I fell out with my best friend over this and all our mutual friends obviously went with her as I hear nothing from anyone.
Also my sister in laws constantly exclude me, nights out, meals etc and I am in the family over 20 years. I made peace with that until I heard my husbands brothers wife has been included. I have always tried my best with all of them so not sure of the issue.
I am constantly beating myself up, telling myself I must be a horrible person as I have absolutely no one outside family except my husband. He thinks I need to get to the point where I don’t care but the issue is I care too much.
What is wrong with me? Am I just not likable? Have I got something wrong with my personality? Why has no one stood by me?
AIBU to be taking this personally.