Don't know why im really here.
Mum of 3. Two teen girls and 5 year old boy.
Been seeing new man for 2 years.
Great at the start. Perfect.
The last 6 months he really changed.
I couldn't do nothing right. Not even wash dishes properly.
I'm very confident happy person but I've lost everything I am.
He turned to be so cruel. To how I raise the kids too soft, I spoil them. To he can't sleep in my bed because my beds crap, my house has loads wrong with it.
Honestly he picked at everything.
I've finished him a week ago. I've cried all day long under a blanket. I feel like a total nobody. I hate myself. Not good enough. Crap house. Crap mum. Crap everything. I've gone that dark I've realised the kids will be ok without me cus I'm so sad & low.
This man went to every extent to where I wasn't even allowed my fan on at night to get me to sleep.
This is not the half of it.
He really wooed me at the start.
Bought me a lovely car.
I've dropped that off at his house & posted the key.
I was pregnant at Xmas and he told me he hoped the baby was ugly etc cus I didn't see him as much cus I was so poorly so I had an abortion I couldn't take it all. I hate myself for that.
I don't know how to get out this feeling. I hate myself so much for allowing myself to be like this. I've not eaten for a week.