november 22 , boy (married) chances his luck with me (married) end up kissing long story short. We were together a couple of times when very young, also he is a nearby neighbour. Chased me when younger at 18. But we were young etc.
fast forward that night, i asked what was it with us, he said we have a connection etc. last time about 19/20 we kissed and we both had partners too.
absolutely no contact since then. Didnt exchange numbers etc. moved on for the year. Just last week i got his number and rang him after greeting him at a funeral. He had a few words with my dad. They both love each other. I dont know what came over me. I cant explain it. I honestly cant. He text me two mins later to say he was in the pub with my brother and said “well, how are you? here in with … and co..
i didnt give him my number?
i reolied and said i was just ok and then said i would leave them to it…
2 hours later he text and asked if i was in homeplace ? And i said no i was in X with friends for night. (I lied because i didnt know what to say)
he said enjoy, have a good night. I replied thanks with a teary face. He replied immediately with whats up? I didn’t reply then 10 mins later asking can he ring me? I didnt reply.
met him following night, he was on date for dinner with the wife.
the following day i asked text him to give me a buzz last week if it suited. He replied a few mins later saying “OK, will do….
that will be two weeks next fri so had a feeling he wouldnt call me . I feel like a complete fool to be honest. I actually dont know why i rang him in first place , dont know what came over me.
he hasnt blocked me and we are still friends on FB.
there has always been something there, i cant explain it nor can i move on from it. Obviously i wont be contacting him again but my head is a mess. Help me see sense. Why did he have my number?