So I've been with my partner now fiance for nearly 2 years, im 33, hes 45 we have a son that's now 6 months old. Since being pregnant and having our son I jus feel its constant arguments and bickering, he speaks to me so disrespectfully, calls me a bitch, talks over me so I can't finish a sentence. He shouts in front of the kids at me, sometimes waking up the baby from his nap and I also have a 12 Yr old daughter from a previous relationship that adores him but has to Hear him shouting at me. I'm not saying he doesn't have his good points coz he does but the arguing has got to a point where its every day more or less and its bringing me to a new low! When I've tried to talk and communicate with him he jus rolls his eyes and mumbles shit or says whatever. We've split up once before over how he talks to me and the constant lack of affection and care. I literally have to ask him for a cuddle or a kiss. And when we do row and I get so upset, n cry he doesn't bat an eyelid. But it's making me so low within myself and damaging my self esteem, and making me anxious all the time..he works nights so I do all day and all night with the baby, then when he does have days off he ain't interested in spending time with me or showing me any love whatsoever.
I dunno what to do? Coz I love him but I know it's making me so unhappy but same time I know I've now jus had his son and jus feel slightly trapped in the situation. Use to be such a strong confident woman, and now I jus feel trodden down, weak and shit in myself. Jus scared to make the wrong decision, cos I know he wants to come home but I don't wanna end up back in same situation again coz he always promises he'll be better and always goes back to this.
Jus want some advice plz.