I'm feeling like a teenager all over again. I'm 29!! Please help me get a grip.
For the first time, in 6 years, I finally fancy someone. I was stuck in an abusive relationship for many years, so my eyes were firmly on ex, so was scared of the opposite sex and did not have any interest in them at all (thought that I could be gay).
Anyway, back to the story, there's a very good looking man who works as a train guard of some sort, he has worked in my local train station for years- so I'm often bumping into him. Thought he was initially gay, no idea why I thought that, so didn't really pay him no mind. Sometimes, I think he glances my way, but I doubt it as I am way over his league and probably loads of women fawn over him. But I do have a peculiar dress sense, more pinkish, so he could be just admiring my style. There was one point I saw him out of work and he was dressed in full head gear black emo style- so figured that the reason why he was glancing at me was just because he liked what I was wearing.
For the first time, I had to ask him a question as my DD left to go to school by herself on the train (she didn't tell me and forgot her phone at home) so I was walking up and down the platform, looking for her like some lunatic. So I saw the train guard (the one I have a crush on)-whether he had seen DD. He told me "Oh! The little girl your always with? Yes, I saw her past. I wanted to tell her to wait for you but I didn't know what to do"... so after that short conversation, we exchanged pleasantries and off I went.
This morning I wanted to have the courage to say "hello" to him but I just couldn't. I looked straight ahead and walked off. I don't know, maybe I am overthinking this, I just want to muster the courage and say "hello". I'm not expecting a date or a relationship. I just want to be confident but also don't want to miss opportunities.