This is my first time posting but today I have never felt so alone. I’m currently pregnant (my third) and am 11 weeks, unfortunately in January I had a miscarriage which still to this day breaks my heart, even in this pregnancy currently. Today I’ve not been feeling well, tiredness, nausea and also just finished my night shifts as a nurse so I think that’s not helped my symptoms. Today me and my husband got into an argument, he seemed on edge because he was looking after our daughter and I feel he blames me for being poorly. He told our daughter we was no longer going on holiday this week coming because she had a tantrum which was three year olds do, which I said wasn’t fair and I said he isn’t doing that to her mentally. He started shouting at me to go rest but didn’t do it in a way which was emphatically but more that he was annoyed at me, he started argument which led me to argue back and the final blow was when he stood over the stairs at me and spat directly at me, I’ve not spoken to him since and he came to me a few hours after asking if I wanted to make up, I told him I wanted to be alone and have some space, this again escalated and he threw the pillow at my head to which I replied that he must really be disgusted at me to do this when I’m carrying his child, what hurts the most is what he said next, he simply said I killed our baby in January, I had a miscarriage, I had to have multiple scans, medications and have our baby alone in our toilet, he followed on to say his always been disgusted at me ever since I had post natal depression with our first born. I feel like our marriage is over at this point for me, again I’ve never posted on here but I’ve never felt so alone in all my existence as I do now