My husband and I have been together for 8 years, married for 2. We had conversations and made plans to try for a family once we had had our Honeymoon in November - it had already been pushed back by a year because of covid but we had planned to start once we got back. Shortly before we went on our honeymoon we had been bickering and things just didn’t seem good between us. I tried to rekindle things but as a result it actually came out that he doesn’t want children or doesn’t know if he doesn’t want children. This flattened me and tore me in two. The man I thought was my everything hadn’t shared this really big thing and it felt as though he hadn’t thought about me in any way shape or form (that may sound selfish on my part) but what I believed to be our future was now a total blur.
He explained that he didn’t want children now but didn’t know if this would change his mind but might later. After many years I decided with the hope there that it’s not just a child I want with him but a family and we are a family already without children. Maybe we can live a happy life without children in our plan. But I am finding myself that baby’s keep popping up everywhere and the more I think about it the more I hope for our family to include children. I don’t want to walk away from my husband because I love him so much but I also do t know what to do. This is something that can’t be Compromised on. If he doesn’t want children and I want to stay I have to be grounded with that decision but at the moment I’m really struggling as I feel ready to be a mum and want to grow our family.