I’ve been with my boyfriend a year and a half , he is always calling me fat and lazy but I am just so depressed with how he treats me I have no energy, I’ve recently just had a bad leg injury at the gym and he is really angry and gets annoyed with me because I can’t walk fast or go to the gym for 4 weeks to lose weight , I’m a size 10 in clothes so I wouldn’t say I’m fat but it’s really starting to affect my mental health, I have a young child from a previous relationship and him and my son are close but he is always shouting at me infront of him calling me horrible names like fat, I’ve asked him so many times to stop and he promises he will but never does , he threatens to leave me or sleep with other girls and always says I don’t care about him or give him enough attention , I’m genuinely lost all I do is run around after him and feel like I’m walking on egg shells he’s never actually hit me , except for an incident when we first got together but I’m so scared of him , he always threatens to hurt my friends and family every time we argue and always says I’m a horrible person and he wants to be rid of me, but never leaves I feel like I’ve lost myself and I can’t do anything without being scared how he reacts, even going shopping if they don’t have the food he wants I have a panic attack, I’m constantly crying but don’t know how to leave because of how scared and trauma bonded I am, I’ve tried going through the police but it didn’t help, I’m quite isolated from my friends because he keeps track of all my social media’s and puts spy ware in my home so I don’t speak to my friends to keep them safe from him, I can’t speak to my own sister to tell her what’s happening because I’m scared he will do something to my family. I don’t know how to leave but I just want safety and happiness for me and my son , he has made an appointment with a mental health nurse because we suspect he has bipolar I told him I didn’t want him around my son until he has been to his appointment and got help but he got angry and left me , the problem is he doesn’t leave he always comes back or guilt trips me into thinking it’s all my fault , I don’t know what to do or where to turn to when the police hasn’t worked well for me but I’m really scared and can’t keep living like this , every day I keep thinking of killing myself so I can get away from it. Does anyone please have any advice of how I can safely leave.