After few years into marriage, we had a situation where we are living separately. I realised how much I'm happy by being alone especially coming from an Indian household where I never got what I want. But once we are together again I'm really not happy when my husband is close to me, even it's a hug. I'm disgusted even a small touch. I asked him divorce as I totally want to be alone with out any sort of relationship and get what I lost in life. But he is not ready, he is saying he loves me and wants me in his life and without me his life is incomplete. Though I understand what he was saying, still I'm unable to force my heart. Everyday facing him is really difficult especially when he keeps his face like depressed and crying in his heart. I feel sorry but unable to turn that into like, I feel wrong and guilty, but I'm unhappy. I really couldn't find any solution for it. Looking at him everyday making me more depressed.