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Am I going crazy - or am I with a narcissist

66 replies

JaneBloggs1996 · 07/02/2023 09:10

This is going to be quite a long one, so apologies in advance.

my boyfriend and I are having a few issues recently, so I could do with some advice.

To give some background I’m 27 and he’s 26, we own a house together, we are both considered high earners (£70k plus) and he has a 5 year old son (who I am the step mother of).

I have also previously been in an extremely physically abusive relationship and therefore I am quite sensitive.

My boyfriend has autism and has always struggled with regulating his tone. However, more recently this has become more and more problematic with arguments often ending up getting very heated on his part (usually over very small things). To the point that recently, he pushed me, kicked me and then threw some things breaking them. Further, on Christmas Day, he got so annoyed at a very small thing that he threw the Christmas tree across the room smashing a very sentimental bauble that my mother had got me. There have been numerous other times where his anger has gotten the better of him.

Further, he is extremely lazy and does hardly any house work (only if I give specific instructions), 99% of our large house is cleaned by me.

Also, anything that ever happens is always my fault. Everything is twisted and the whole situation is completely gaslit and warped to being my fault. Even something small like his shoes going missing.

More recently, it was my birthday, and we went to Rome to celebrate. We split the costs evenly (dog care, fuel, flights, transport when we were there, car parking and food) save for the hotel which he paid for.

However, the day of my birthday came, and I was upset to find that he hadn’t bought me a card. He claimed it’s because Italians don’t do cards (fair enough but why couldn’t one be purchased prior to leaving). It wasn’t that I was being a spoilt brat, but considering the last few months I just wanted to wake up to some lovely words on a piece of 20p card. To give further context, due to being autistic, my partner isn’t the most romantic type and very rarely says or does anything cute, so to me it was an opportunity to be romantic and write some nice words to make me feel special.

More recently, my boyfriend decided to start a public forum about this, to which I have been completely berated and hounded, where people are calling me spoilt and selfish and that I shouldn’t have expected a birthday card considering I was in Rome. He has been sending me screenshots of these messages (some of which are completely vile, calling me all sorts of names) and telling me that I am completely wrong and that I’m a horrible person etc.

Any advice would be appreciated - am I expecting too much?

OP posts:
Daisy1245 · 07/02/2023 09:13

Leave. You have no children together. Just leave.

MillenialAvocado · 07/02/2023 09:14

Leave him NOW.

AlisonDonut · 07/02/2023 09:15

Get out.

Gunpowder · 07/02/2023 09:16

You aren’t expecting too much you are expecting too little. Please leave now. It’s much harder once you have children.

FuckeNell · 07/02/2023 09:17

Your boyfriend is a CUNT

Screenshot this and show him

Dejavu23 · 07/02/2023 09:19

Horrible. Don’t stay with him.

Thesoundofmusic23 · 07/02/2023 09:19

Agree with others this is not a healthy respectful equal partnership you should leave him. Good luck.

crackofdoom · 07/02/2023 09:19

This is not an autistic thing. It's an abuse thing.

(Not the point I know, but I kind of agree with him about the card. No need to react like that though)

Whiskeypowers · 07/02/2023 09:20

Being autistic doesn’t give you a hall pass to be a violent abusive piece of shit

leave him

EVHead · 07/02/2023 09:20

Please leave. Your life will be hell if you stay with him. Get yourself away from him. Call the police if he kicks off.

determinedtomakethiswork · 07/02/2023 09:20

Oh god, you haven't got one reason to stay with this horrible man. And those things he does have absolutely nothing to do with him being autistic.

newposters · 07/02/2023 09:21

He created a public post about this and is sending you screenshots? Presumably you're doing the same so you can send him screenshots too? If so, please don't play games with someone who is both physically and emotionally violent.

You mention he has autism and is also a high earner. Presumably he doesn't act this way at work and if that's the case, he can control it and so it's not autism-related. It all sounds awfully unhealthy.

mumyes · 07/02/2023 09:23

You are incredibly fortunate not to have had kids with this absolute arsehole.

LEAVE HIM!!

You are young & you will find someone better / nice / NORMAL!!!

Seriously, extricating yourself from a shared house is nothing compared to having kids with someone.

Galadriel90 · 07/02/2023 09:23

You are in another abusive relationship OP. Leave him.

Januaryisthelongestyear · 07/02/2023 09:24

The people I know with autism buy cards and flowers because it's the social normal.and they like to follow the 'rules'. Just as an aside.

This man may or may not be autistic but he's definitely a violent, abusive bully. Run, don't walk.

tothelefttotheleft · 07/02/2023 09:24

His behaviour is nothing to do with autism.

mattyd · 07/02/2023 09:26

Your previous relationship has made you less sensitive, not more sensitive.

You've unfortunately found another abuser, but because he's not as bad as the previous one, that doesn't make it ok. For your own safety you really should get away as quickly as possible. There's no happy ending here.

GrazingSheep · 07/02/2023 09:26

I think counselling may be beneficial. You need help to see why you can’t see what is so wrong with this situation.

Catapultaway · 07/02/2023 09:27

It's interesting how things can be twisted when you hear 2 different stories, because I could probably see his point on the card.

But the card isn't relevant, he's been violent, you didn't need to write the rest. Leave before it gets worse.

Blahburst · 07/02/2023 09:29

The first time he pushed and kicked you should have been the end of your relationship. Better late than never though…
you deserve better.

Amy1992Brighton · 07/02/2023 09:32

You are young, you earn over £70k a year, you don't have kids with him, and he sounds like a horrible person. Leave him now, you've got so much to look forward to and not with him.

AnneLovesGilbert · 07/02/2023 09:33

I can only imagine how violent your ex was that this arsehole physically assaulting you only gets a passing comment. It’s heartbreaking you’re putting up with this abuse. Please believe me that’s this isn’t normal and most people don’t live like this and that you deserve better.

Are you in touch with his son’s mother? Was he violent towards her too?

FenghuangHoyan · 07/02/2023 09:33

Erm... I'm autistic and I dont go around hitting people. I'm also not lazy or inconsiderate. As a PP has said he can control it in work, so he could control it at home if he wanted to.

You're being physically, verbally and emotionally abused and could do a lot better by the sounds of things. One person has already got rid of him as well (his son's mother), so that should have been a warning to you. Leave him.

cloudrunner · 07/02/2023 09:34

He kicked you.
He pushed you, he smashes things when he's angry, he uses you as an emotional punching bag, he's lazy, he's cruel, he has you waiting on him and organising everything at home.
You are being bullied and abused.
Why are you even asking?
Why are you choosing a life where you let a man treat you like a frightened slave? He's never going to write you 'nice words', and if he did they would mean nothing. His behaviour tells you what he thinks of you - that you're there to meet his needs and he'll use all the power you've handed him to make you miserable. Always.
You earn as much as he does and have no children with him. You're his equal in every way but you're willingly surrendering your happiness and freedom to an angry bully.
Leave him. Now.

Ragwort · 07/02/2023 09:36

I know this sounds unkind but I struggle to understand how someone is clearly bright enough to earn £70k yet allows themselves to be treated so badly. Where is your self respect? You can obviously afford to live on your own ... my adult DS managed on £21k (South East) ... so just get out of this situation.