Just has another row and pushed him and have hurt my hand

[Beauregard]

Have to be careful he doesn't see me typing this as will only start another row.

hope you are ok

miserable but thanks.

Hope you are ok

PFNM

Did he attack you or were you the first to hit out ?

He has never touched me,i pushed him.

Serves me right as my wrist has now gone numb.

What was the argument about?

Oh

Whenever I've lashed out in the past (before DH) I've always ended up more injured than my 'victim' !

Is there anywhere you can go to let off steam and avoid any further confrontation ?

We are always bickering ,usually instigated by me because he would be quite happy to drift along regardless.

Money is one of the reasons oh and the fact that life is always shite and i am constantly fighting depression.

sounds grim

do you any help with your depression ?

sorry, do you have any help

oh pelvic Im sorry things are not good this evening. Im just sorting my dinner and am on MSN if you want to talk as soon as my plates in front of me x.

Sounds crap Pelvic - are you talking to each other now or doing the ignoring thing?

he is pretending that nothing has happened as usual.

thanks melsy but i am pretty miserable tonight.

ok , Im here if you want to x

please please please be careful what you do.
i cut up my foor ankle very badly, whilst trying to kick dh, managing to get it through a glass panel in the door. i was very lucky. no cut ligaments or tendons. dsis is really really annoyed at me. she once had a boy come into a&e. 17 years old, angry at his father, punched his fist through glass. he cut every single one of the tendons in his wrist. whilst he didnt lose his hand, he basically lost almost all function. he was right handed, but had to relearn how to write with his left hand.....
please be very careful. if you are rowing with im. dont hurt yourself. no matter how angry or low you feel. it can have life changing consequences.

It is always the same ,i raise the problems and he just ums and ahs and then pretends that nothing is wrong.
I am really banging my head against a brick wall.

NDP-I have tried most meds for depression and had the basic few sessions of cbt .
Not much else can be done ,i will not go back on meds.

pukka -i am hoping i have just sprained my wrist.

Pelvic - I too have a DH that pretends nothings up after a big ding dong whilst I'm still seething.

I think I dwell on stuff more than him, he's very relaxed about everything and it drives me bonkers.

Can you talk to him now about what is bothering you without it spiralling into a row to clear the air?

Turkey -It will just end in another row.

How do you know when a relationship is really over?

Is the CBT finished for now?

Men (as in my dh) , have a great ability to just shove it all under the carpet. You end up feeling powerless , hence such extreme physical anger , as you feel that's the only way to get through to them. Im still working on how to do that with mine withought extremes.

If it is a sprain , take some ibuprofen and put an ice pack on it at regular intervals to help bring down any inflammation.

Why did you push him?

I mean, you know that's not on, yes?

Maybe switching off the computer and talking to him wouldnt be such a bad idea?

Pelvic - thats a difficult question to answer. Do you love him? Can you really imagine life without him and how that would be? Think of all the positives of your relationship and then all the negatives and weight them up.

One thing though, you cannot rely on him to make you happy. Only you can do that.

Melsy-The cbt finished months ago,she said i was ok and i told her i wasn't but she insisted so i had no choice.

VVVQV-Yes obviously i know it was wrong but in the red mist i felt i had nothing else left to do.Like i said the fact i am now hurting serves me right.
He is busy messing with his laptop .
I don't have the energy left now to start it all again.Plus i am fighting off a panic attack.

What made you so angry?

Wise words TurkeyLurkey,thankyou.
There is probably more pros than cons but i don't think i am in love with him but i do love him.We have been together so many years (16)i guess there is no spark left.We don't do anything coupley(prob no such word)

Life is one long cleaning , childcare and working session.