Partner is going to visit his kids from a previous relationship for a couple of days over Christmas leaving me with our new baby for the first time alone for that long. I've got PND and the suicidal thoughts have only improved as I can give him the baby to go do chores etc when I get overwhelmed. I'm not sure how I'll cope, if I'll cope.
He hasn't asked how the suicidal thoughts are or what can be done to help me cope. I have absolutely no friends or family to help.
His kids have seen alot less of him since baby arrived and I get that it's Christmas and it's what his kids are used to but I think with everything going on seeing them for a day would have been better.
But I know single mums do this everyday and partners go away for work etc often. It's just me being pathetic.
I feel so angry, anxious and irritable with him all the time and I can't speak to him as it just sounds like I don't want him to see his kids.
He said it sounds like I feel like Cinderella, doing every thing and it not being fair or easy. I wish it was only that. I wish I could run away.
But I need to just get over it, right?
Woman up and look after the baby without complaining.