Over the last few years I've written several posts about my difficulties with dh.
We have now separated and I do feel so much better.
He emotionally abused me and also had a terrible, explosive temper.
Although he never hit me, he did bash things such as walls and doors.
He also has a history of fighting as a younger man.
However, he did on one occasion push me and say he felt like killing me.
It took me a long time to actually leave him.
I recently refered to the pushing incident and reminded him what he said and why I couldn't continue with all this behaviour and feeling scared and anxious.
His view on this was,
"I didn't mean it! I would never hit you.
People say stuff when angry.
When was this? Years ago?!"
And so on.
So he thinks I've exagerrated his behavior and history.
He disagrees with the term emotional abuse.
He said the relationship therapist took my side.
He has done this in another context too when he told another woman she was beautiful in a text message.
He admits he shouldn't have done it but says it was just a word.
And he tells me he said sorry for all these things, which he did.
But the same issues continued and nothing changed.
I could not get past any of this stuff.
I tried but it just got increasingly difficult over the years.
I'm glad I've separated from him now but am also so sad what has happened in my life.
I'm actually quite lonely and depressed and just wanted to put it on here that I've finally left him.
People on here used to help me over the years.