I’m 30 weeks pregnant and my partner left me a month ago saying he had changed his mind about wanting to be a dad and that I had changed in pregnancy and he couldn’t deal with my mood swings. I thought he would come round but he has not spoken to me since. Stress has been an understatement. What’s upset me especially is he works high up in gynaecology and speaks to women day in and day out about these things and offers loads of support.
This morning I woke up furious. I re read my texts, 90% apologetic, none of them referencing how below the belt some of his behaviour was in my pregnancy like generally just being miserable and not taking interest, making me feel like an inconvenience. I’ve basically begged for him back and here and there said ‘but you did this’ and ‘please can we talk?’ Over and over.
I’ve lost all self respect haven’t I? Is it gone for good with him?
I have decided I don’t want to be with him now but the grief has then followed that my life doesn’t look like what I hoped for my family unit. I can’t believe how awful he has been to blank me. I’m devastated by it and utterly embarrassed that I’ve asked to talk so many times. i have moments where I want to text and list to him how shit HE actually is and how he’s a shit person for acting like me and the baby don’t exist.
But there’s no point in carrying it on is there. Someone please talk me down. I’m very very fragile so please be kind. I can’t believe how my world has fallen apart.