I found out I was pregnant at the start of last month. It was due to a very brief relationship and unplanned but I've genuinely never been so happy. I felt like I'd won the lottery. I was doing everything I could to have a successful pregnancy, I stopped all alcohol straight away, started foelic acid, I was washing all veg, cooking chicken and eggs to within an inch of their life. I had some spotting/weird yellow discharge so had an early scan at 6 week + 6. The baby had a heartbeat and was measuring a few days bigger. The DR told me I was "one of the lucky ones," and said there was very little chance of anything going wrong now there was a heartbeat. A week later I had some incredibly light spotting on a swab I took to find out why I was having the weird discharge. I was booked for another scan and they couldn't find a heartbeat. I don't understand how this could happen and I'm convinced it was my fault. In my quest to find out what went wrong I have just realised that my fridge was set at 0, which means it was effectively off this whole time. I have eaten chicken breast and homemade mackerel pate from that fridge, (listeria? toxoplasmosis?) could this have been it? Could it have been the yellow discharge? Infection? I called the doctor so many times about it and was fobbed off, sent from pillar to post until eventually they told me to pick up a swab kit, almost 2 weeks after I'd initially asked. Should I have been more proactive? I just know it was my fault, how can a healthy foetus just stop growing for no reason in less than a week? I've never experienced pain like this. I'm in my mid 30s, this might have been my last chance. I'm completely broken by this. Has anyone had a similar experience and know how I can get answers?