Hi ladies. This is very surreal as the last time I posted on here I miscarried, and then conceived my wonderful baby boy.
Me and boyfriend have been together 5 years. Nearly 3 of those years our little boys been around :)
I don't know if I'm in love with him anymore and tbh I feel he's the same.
Bit of background he's 8 years older than me, extremely money orientated and quite cold.
When we first met I was attracted to his ambition and what he had accomplished but since then I've realised I'm never going to be his equal. I'm not on the mortgage, which if I'm honest I understand as when we first moved in here we didn't know we would have a baby so soon after and I didn't have any money to put down for a deposit. However, with talks of a new house if I put £20k down I only get a percentage.... he's also constantly telling me I'm stupid if I have an accident in the house, for explain I broke a kitchen tile when a massive vase came crashing down on me, he told me I'd have to save for it and pay for the whole floor. He never tells me I'm pretty, if we argue I'm crazy and he never says sorry first. Everything is all about what he's being doing, what he wants. What he wants to achieve. He also involves his mum in everything, she knows about stuff before I do and I'm the mother of his child... But I'm not sure I can be apart from my child and share him. My mother in law is also a force to be reckoned with so I feel it would be extremely hard for me to get a good co parenting relationship going. There's lots more I could add and go into detail about but if I'm honest i just don't think I'll ever be enough, no matter what I do!