Kelwar, sadly we can't rent. I have a very small salary - 900 GEL in a month, which is $330, but since we have GEL currency, it's like $900 for us, but still it's very low, especially for 2 people and I didn't mention earlier we have a cat too and feeding and taking care of him costs me 100 GEL in a month. So, you understand now why we can't rent.
Finding better paying job seems also very difficult task and in general it's hard to find a work in this country if you don't have a lengthy working background experience or have some popular skills as a developer, designer or etc, which sadly I'm not. These days I'm in a very dark place in my mind. I'm thinking, what if my mother really kicks us out in the street? Then what? Then, I really don't see other option, but to tell my wife to go back to USA and separate. And I love my wife so much and we're so inseparable that if this really happens then my next thing will be to end my life, because I really don't want to live without her. There's no point. But let's hope situation doesn't go that far. Hope there's small humanity still left in my mother, but the thing that she's already threatening us to kick us out, is very scary. How cruel you must be to push your own son to such great limits of stress and fear? And she has this negative aura. She might not say anything, but you can feel it, when she's around. At first, I thought I was exaggerating and maybe she wasn't as bad mother as I thought, but when I got married and my wife started living with us, she told me that I wasn't exagerrating and she truly was a horrible person. She even told me that she never hated anyone in her whole life, until she met my mother. My mother can call me words like "garbage", "trash", "asshole", "weakling", "stupid" and etc. And just to tell you what kind of son and person I am in general: I work, I'm a family man, don't party anymore, don't spend time with friends, only family. I don't do drugs, I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't gamble, I don't cheat and being loyal to my wifey. Every sunday I do big chores with my wife - I dust, vacuum clean, clean restroom, make food on weekends, do laundry and even dry my wife's hair. And still, acording to my mother I'm garbage. Oh and also, when my mother isn't home, usually home stays clean and not messy, because both me and my wife keep it organized and clean, but when my mother comes, home becames like a Tornado driven, full of chaos and messiness. We clean up for her all the time.
And I'll tell you the reason to why fight happened last time... It was weekend evening and every evening at 6PM me and my wife make a dinner and on Saturday I always make a fried potatoes. So, when it became 6 and went to kitchen, I see my mother doing heavy cooking in the kitchen and using the only big pan we have. So, I said "mom, why you're doing this heavy cooking, you know that our dinner comes always at this time?". She goes "Oh, I'm cooking for your sister". And all I said after that was: "Why you cooking for her? Can't she cook herself in her own house?". And when I said that, all the sudden her face turned into red and she unleashed whole hell on me. Started screaming like a crazy, calling me names. Then went to my wife, accused her of putting me against my sister and her, calling her enemy of family, even though my wife didn't say anything. And she forbid us to mention my sister's name at all in this house or she would kick us from the house! She was also swinging knife in her hand and was very aggresive, almost tried to physically go after us. I recorded a video, but sadly after she put down the knife. That's the person we're dealing with. She's very aggressive and horirbly overprotective of my sister. Now, let me tell you a few things about my sister: She has her own house, she works, so does her husband. They have 2 kids and a dog, they have a car and they have 2 babysitters. Clearly they're not struggling as we do. Yet, she always sends her kids here, every weekend like a clock. No one cares about me and my wife's privacy or asks if we want those kids here or no. By the way, her kids are quite spoiled. Always crying and yelling if they don't get want they want and this is the result of my sister's and my mother's raising tactics. Oh, and my sister is very distant from me. She never messages me or calls me to even say a simple hi or ask me how I'm doing. She appears only once in a year to say happy birthday to us and that's it and when she's going to have a party with her friends, she always leaves her kids here to our mother, so she can have a fun time with her friends, while we're dealing here with her spoiled kids and enduring their screams.
If we survive this time to not get kicked out, then me and my wife need to be very careful from now on with her, especially me. I need to always remember that my mother is a ticking bomb and do my best to not provoke her, just give her yes or no answers or very small talk only when necessary.