I'm going to sound very dramatic but I met my soulmate. He is everything to me and it just felt so right. However, we were both fresh out of relationships and I wonder if this was more rebound or a bond over new found freedom. There is no denying we are ridiculously similar in our outlook, goals and the way we conduct ourselves. I've never met any one like him. Even more ridiculous I fell head over heels in love with him and I do believe he felt the same about me.
I always knew things would be tough for him surrounding his children. He loves them more than anything else in the world as he should. With Christmas approaching I could see the pain he was in not spending all his time with them. He has now made the decision to go back to his children and wife. I honestly wish him happiness and success going forward because I do believe he deserves this.
Now for the selfish bit. I am crushed. I feel lost and defeated. It physically hurts in my chest and I feel sick most of the time. What a crazy way to feel maybe but I cannot control it. However, I need too. How do I move on from this?