Back in January I ended up sleeping with a good friend of mine. One thing after the other led to this being a regular thing, and we both caught feelings for each other. I wasn't sure if we should date, but we said we'd give it a go.
We've been together since. But I've suddenly sort of got an ick. I've realised that I really care for him, but I don't love him. I've had moments over the past six months where I've started to feel it. My friend has been telling me to end things for some time, which tbh is putting me off him .
The problem is, he is my best friend. We are so similar and we share friendship group. I will really miss him if he decided to go nc. Our sex is amazing, some of the best I have ever had. But the problem is, I don't get butterflies.
I've told myself that because we started dating from friends, it won't be the same as the usual dating. I'm really torn. I have only once had the whole butterflies and true love thing with an ex. I don't know if it's cruel to keep this going as I'm not one hundred percent sure this can last for ever. But equally, I don't know if I am just getting cold feet with ' the grass is always greener'.
He is handsome, in shape, smart, and has a great career.