What have I gone and done now?

[mumof2teenboys]

I know that I'm going to get told off but I need to tell someone.
My DP works away from home, he's away for 6-8 weeks at a time and then back for 2 weeks.
Last night I slept with an ex who, if I'm being honest, I've never stopped having feelings for.
It was just as good as it always was, but I know that I should be feeling v.guilty and I don't.
My DP and I have been having so many problems over the last couple of years, my eldest son being the main one. I resent the job he does and the fact that I am on my own so much of the time.
I know that doesn't excuse my behaviour last night, but what does it say about me and our relationship?
I'm a bad person, aren't I?

I don't think you need any more advice From your first post to your most recent you seem to have self sorted!

You know your relationship better than any of us, you know how best to make it work for both yourself and DP.

You don't even need to be told that falling into the arms of another man is not going to solve the problem, you already know that BUT, I am going to tell you not to do it again!

Thank you to everyone who posted, it's the first time I've ever posted on here and it was really lovely to get so many replies and advice.

I'm not sure what is going to happen to dp and me,but you have all been so nice and helpful to me.

Thankyou so much, better than other forums that I've tried in the past.

Michelle xx

I hope you sort things out soon Michelle and everyone lives happily ever after .....

wisteria! some things are best left to fantasy!

I hope it all works out for you too Michelle. I can't help but think that you posted on here, not for advice as such, but for us to give you a good whipping for cheating on DP. As if you don't feel bad enough yourself

I know!! and they are there (in fantasy), can't help being a teensy bit envious though, aren't you?

That 'new sex' thing is just a different 'ball' game isn't it - hee hee [evil emoticon]

I feel disloyal even admitting to fantasing about it! I don't think I would ever be able to do it for real, but i don't sit in judgement of anyone who has, who wants to or is about to

And anyway, it all starts out exciting but it all ends the same way, with picking up and washing dirty grundies

Better the grundies you know sometimes!

....and the reasons you first find them so attractive suddenly morph into the most annoying habits , weird isn't it?

It's the farting in bed I can't stand, well actually just generally, I find it really off putting.........

We seem to have a rose coloured view of them in the early days don't we, then when the colour fades we see the reality. But, I wonder if it is any different for them. I wonder how much we change or how different we are to the women they first met.

I don't fart though, not in front of him anyway. I'm a Laydee

mumof2 - I don't blame you for doing what you did and anyway, how do you know your bloke isn't doing the same if he is away for 6-8 weeks at a time he must get sexually frustrated.

I feel sorry for you and from what you have said your ex sounds a lot nicer. Go with your gut instinct. Dont stay with a man you are unhappy with.

wisteria
Is now a good time to say it was great? Like I said I've never done anything like that before. It was every bit as good as it used to be. But it wasn't real life

I always used to think that I would never be confident enough to sleep with someone else. I know that we have history but it has been a long time since. It was very good though

littlegoldfish

I'm not staying with him in spite of being unhappy, I'm staying because I think I owe it to him and my sons to try and make it work, if it doesn't work, at least I tried.