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Strength to leave a porn hound

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MihaelaCW · 18/06/2021 07:58

Hi all. I'm looking for tips about ending my marriage. I've been married for five years. My husband is a fetishist with a very specific turn on. Long story short, he used porn pretty much very day throughout our marriageable. He used it compulsively in my family home at Christmas. He used it on our honey money (should have left him then...). He lied about it again and a gain and again. After telling him our marriage is almost over, he had a few therapy sessions. He says he's alla different but guess what. He still wanks to fetishist porn every bloody day, i saw him do it just yesterday. He can perform sexually but anything that isn't fetish isn't exciting so we've been having little sex (1-2 a month) and it's been mediocre. He's otherwise an OK husband and a kind person, but I know I won't ever be enough for him him and I don't want want to spend the next 40 years seeing him masturbate to 20 year old rolling in food and mud (that's the fetish). I've had enough. Unfortunately the other men I dated before him also had fetishes, they just didn't hide them that well, so I'm preparing mentally to spend the rest of my life alone (I'm turning 30 this year). Any advice on preparing for for divorce masturbate having the strength to go through with it? It'll entail a lot of emotions and we own a house together (which I furbished singles handedly) .

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me4real · 18/06/2021 18:17

He's doing it right now. Wow. I feel sick and so so stupid. There's no pause.

@MihaelaCW OMG. Could you confront him? Maybe afterwards? Envy

ScabbyHorse · 18/06/2021 18:29

He's an addict just as bad as an alcoholic drug addict or gambler. He's selfish and his particular addiction is hurtful to you personally. So rank.
I know my DP wanks to porn but luckily we don't live together and I don't have to be around it. Gross.

Closetbeanmuncher · 18/06/2021 18:31

The frequency has gone past the point of fetish into obsessive mental illness territory.

Out of curiosity have you ever had a go at the rolling in food thing together?

TooTiredForToday · 18/06/2021 18:32

It's really not about you and how attractive or otherwise you might be. He probably is attracted to you and maybe even loves you but this is about him and his addiction. It's taken over his life and it's not going to change any time soon. It's ruining your life too.

It's hugely worrying that he's 'finished' therapy but still doing it. Think about it like an addiction like alcohol, he is putting it first and supposedly seeking help but relapsing immediately into the same behaviour. You cannot be expected to live with that, second best to it for the rest of your life.

Best of luck - I truly hope you can free yourself (and ultimately so can he),
but you have to prioritise yourself now and live your life as it's meant to be.

MihaelaCW · 18/06/2021 19:33

It's just not that fetish, although it's his favourite thing of all. It's all women. He leisurely browses nude or scantily dressed women. All the time.

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NakedNugget · 18/06/2021 19:57

Yuck he sounds absolutely vile.

You've got a much better life waiting for you and I hope you find the courage to LTB

MihaelaCW · 18/06/2021 21:34

Thank you. I need to keep telling myself that. I think I'll get some counselling as I gradually prepare to leave him. That should make the transition easier.

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