Should I stay or should I go?

[jabbajabba1]

DP has become day trading obsessed. I gave him my savings to put some into it. And some into a joint savings account (stupid I know). He moved money over from the savings account, into trading without my knowledge. And after a few bad moves, we’ve lost everything. Our house deposit. Which is mostly my savings.

To make matters worse, he doesn’t currently have a job. As he wanted to change careers. He’s doing everything he can to get employment and make amends. He is a smart person. And he’s very kind and caring.

We’re engaged. But not married. I love him. But I just don’t know if I can trust him. And this just isn’t the life I want, or have worked for. I’ve studied. I’ve taken extra weekend work etc. I haven’t lived extravagantly. I feel sick about what's happened. I can't eat, sleep or concentrate. And I just don't know what to do.
The thought of being single at my age (I’m 34) scares me. I really want to have children.

What do I do?

[quote jabbajabba1]**@Crikeyalmighty* @pheonixrebirth*

Thank you. It's really helpful to hear from people who have gone through something similar.[/quote]
That's the wonder thing about Mumsnet.
Reading a lot of other women's stories really helped to bolster my confidence when I was deciding whether to end it with my partner. A lot of the men we love are the same man in a different vessel, however the rhetoric is broadly the same.
My now ex partner has tried to worm his way back but it's a firm no from me.
Don't get me wrong, I still love him but I love my life the way it is now more. I can rely on myself, I could never rely on him.
And from the moaning about how skint he is now, I have to question if he was with me because he loved me or because I financed him. It's not a great feeling but it keeps my bullshit sensor on point.

Please leave him ... he will ruin you 🌺

Nah I'd be gone, no going back IMO

My late DH lost tens of thousands of £s day trading. Then chasing losses. Now i see it as a gambling addiction and cant believe i enabled this shit.