DH and DSs moved out today

[PaperChain]

dh decided he needed a break. He has had enough of me this year. He has gone to his parents in a different county. This means they cant go to school. So I have said this trial separation cannot be longer than a week or two.

How am I going to cope?

PaperChain
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(used to be PhonenixSoaring - but name changed as it wasnt fair on Phoenix as our names were so similar) before that I was naswm and also losty

thanks DG - I shall be around and about the pc this evening so I will nudge you when I am here. I dont expect you to deprive your dc of their pc time!

hi anorak - have you moved yet? I have some peace on my own actually - but also a lot of loneliness

Paperchain, please look after yourself, when things get bad call a friend or come on MN. You need to get better for DC's and DH.

It will take time and you will get there please don't self harm and drink, so hard I know. I am so sad I wish I could help you.

Your in my thoughts. X

thansk coolKat.

I just found a drawing of DS1 (5) that really upset me. It was done on 29 July (when I was in hospital). It is of a stick woman, and a house. The house has our number on it, and there is an arrow going from the woman to the house. It's really upset me.

And now of course I am in the house, and they are not here.

I am very sad atm

It will be a miracle if I dont need a prop of some sort tonight

Yes I have moved.

I remember once I felt I needed space and I went away on my own for a long weekend. I was lonely and sad while I was away and felt very low indeed, felt as though it had done me no good at all. But as soon as I got back home I begant to feel much better. I guess in the solitude I had subconsciously worked through a few things.

Sorry to barge in but I wanted to add that I know it is hard to be away from them but your DH has taken them to give you time to yourself and that is great. He obviously needed time too and he could have walked out alone which if I was in your position I would have found very hard. Also, have you been back to the GP? make sure you do and push, push, push for more support if you need it. They are under budget pressures and won't always budge unless harrassed!

Good Luck Paperchain!

Don't need a prop Paperchain. Let us know your ok, find a book go and snuggle in bed and have an early night. Text DH to let him know you are thinking and missing him and DC.

You need to do this to get better. Think getting better = getting family back.

Come on Paperchain you seemed so strong the other day, we are here for you. I work in the day but am here most evening's.

I accept when your that low it is not easy. Thinking of you. X

thanks

I am not strong. I am drunk

and sad and lonely

I really hope you are ok PaperChain, good luck with everything, I've seen a few of your posts and can't imagine how tough things must be for you. Look how strong you are though, you're here and you're coping.

Night

Are you ok today PC?

I know you don't know me and I don't really know you (only what is on this thread) but I just wanted to echo what your friends have said.

You ARE strong. You ARE amazing and you WILL win this battle.

Take care x

Paperchain how are you? I hope you are ok. X

hi coolKat - I am ok, drunk, but ok

paperchain, hi I am the half wit who got your old name muddled with another mnetter! sorry.

You can do this, stay strong and work towards a little goal at a time.
Hope you beat this.

Take care x

oh hi Mrs W - dont woryr about that

I dont feel strong atm

oh I wish I was nearer to be of any use to you. I really really do.

dont be silly!!!!! I am fine, drunk, but fine

Paperchain how are you doing?

Not much exciting happening in my world this week. Have you spoken to DS's?

I hope you are ok, thinking off you and wishing and hoping you find the strength to get better. X