Hi ladies I'm going to apologise in advance for tge long post lol.
I've been with my boyfriend 5 years now. 6 months into the relationship i found out he was on pof and we managed to work past it.
I gave birth to twin girls who are 10 months old now. 4 months after my twins were born i found out my partner had been messaging my best friend of 13 years behind my back. There was text messages, whats app messages and facebook messages between the 2 of them. The messages were basically sexting eachother. They were talking about how much they wanted to sleep together and how to get away with it begind my back saying they'd take time off work to spend the day in bed together having sex and that he'd go hers for sex when i was out so i wouldnt know he had been out. He complimented her a lot and said he couldnt wait to be inside her after she had already given him a blowjob.
At the time they were doing this i felt really low in myself because my boyfriend wasnt interested in me sexually after having my girls by c section because my body was different.
He said it was my fault he did it because he didnt feel loved even tho he was the one refusing sex or intimacy. 2 weeks after i found out about them i found out they were still sexting and had arranged for him to go there while i thought he was at work.
We are still together trying to work things out but 6 minths later im still in a bad head space.
I dont feel good about myself anymore like im not good enough or attractive enough.
But since this happened ive noticed other stuff that has always been the same ive just never thought about properly before i guess. Like how he always snaps and shouts when i dont agree with him. He calls me names a lot when i tell him im upset about something like tellung me not to be silly or not to be a dickhead.
He doesnt help with anything around the house im expected to keep the house clean wash up do the washing basically everything on my own.
I asked him for help with the housework today cuz the girls are teething and really cranky and clingy and im struggling to sort the babies and the hoyse on my own.
He said because he goes to work its my job to sort the house and babies on my own. This morning he sat on his game before work for an hour and a half while i tried to sooth the girls and sort out the washing up from his fry up. I asked him if he could finish the washing up cuz the one twin was really upset and couldnt be left to just cry. He told me not to be stupid he had got to get ready for work that i had to do it myself.
I guess i just needed to get everything off my chest because i dont have a lot of friends left anymore.