I feel stupid having to come here, yet talking to people you don’t know seems to work.
I left a 7 year relationship last year. It wasn’t the nicest, I was hurt and manipulated. I stayed for my two babies. As whenever I wanted to leave he would tell me I would never see my kids again. I knew I couldn’t leave them with him. I plucked up the courage and left last year. 7 years to late. I have no confidence. But what I really get upset about and I don’t want to think like this but, I didn’t want to have sex with someone who made me hate them. In fact it was 2 years I didn’t have sex with him till I left, but I would wake up to him touching me, taking photos of me and secretly watching me in the shower. I cant write that without crying. I feel like I shouldn’t be writing this. Am I the one who is in the wrong to think like this? To think that’s not normal? I will never get over the words which was said to me. I am 28, my first relationship. I can’t stand him for making me this person who I never was. I used to smile and laugh and joke and now I can barley look at myself with hating what I see.