Let down

[Caelan]

I’ve been let down so badly. Fairly new relationship- partner has several quite serious physical health issues plus depression. I’ve done my best to support both practically and emotionally.

I suffer quite severe depression myself and was having an extremely bad day. I asked for him to spend some time with me - just to provide a bit of moral support - he didn’t show - made an excuse he was unwell. I tried to be understanding but he barely asked how I was - sent a short text asking how I was - saying he was still unwell

I’m so hurt - I feel used and let down. I’ve messaged and been very clear with him about how hurt and disappointed I am - said I literally fell so gutted over it - can’t talk with upset etc -which he didn’t acknowledge.

I suppose I just want to say it out loud on here. It’s done and I know that I just want to say it on here to make it real in my head. Thanks for reading.

I know what you mean about it being worse in the morning. What are you doing today? Do you have anyone to keep you company?

It’s healthy that you can express how you feel (eg crying, writing on this thread).

I feel heartbroken for you - it’s just such a sad, empty feeling. You will get through this.

I do have company- I also am busy with work. I keep going over conversations I had with him, trying to work out what happened- it’s going around my head like a record on loop. 😭

Yep - the broken record ruminating sounds very familiar - it is so exhausting and painful, but you can't stop it. It must be part of the processing. Are you into meditation? I found this gave me some relief from thinking about it.

What was the last conversation? Is it helpful to express it here? Or not if you think it will make things worse for you.