I've been seeing a guy for a few weeks, we are both single (obviously) so decided we could 'bubble' together and go about it that way so we could see eachother.
(Before the covid police come along and ask how this happened..)
So like I said, few weeks have passed and we get on really well, he seemed really nice, we planned to have sex today. And did.
I'm on birth control but wanted to use condoms, i didnt tell him this as I didnt think it needed a discussion.
You go to have sex with someone, they pull out/ask for condoms, they get used, right??
Anyway, we got down to it, I put a condom in him and nothing was said, was all normal. I noticed half way through that the condom was gone, I asked him where and he said "it must have fell off" now heres the stupid part, we carried on after that. I guess i just thought that as we'd been doing it for X amount of without one we might as well, I was enjoying myself and didn't really think much of it as I just believed it had fallen off and as I said, I'm on birth control anyway.
It wasnt until afterwards that the condom was found. On the floor, at the side of the bed where he was lying, sitting on top of the empty packet. Theres no way it could have "fell off" and landed there like that, it would have been on the bed surely?? So, he took it off himself. Knowing I wanted to use it.
I'm really torn about it. I like him, my head is telling me is isnt so bad and that maybe it didnt feel good to him, and another part is saying it was disrespectful and maybe says alot about his character?
I know I shouldn't have just carried on and that doesn't look good on my part, but we were in the throws of it all and I believed it had just "fallen off" like he said.
I also know this doesn't amount to rape as he didnt consent TO wear a condom. I just sort of put it on without asking.
I havent spoken to him yet but will later and I feel like I should call it a day with him, but I don't know if I'm making a bigger deal out if it than it should be?
What should I do I feel really weird about it.