I don’t even know where to start
3 1/2 year relationship. Three boys not his
I’m grumpy I’m quite an insecure person. He’s not he’s very confident
I’m divorced he’s never been married. Last partner before me was over 5 years so I figured he was ready to settle down
I had breast cancer last year and a failed reconstruction left me flat and I hate myself I feel a freak
He’s been reassuring but we haven’t had much sex and when we tried it hurt
We went on an 11 day holiday and a few days in he struggled. Says I was a dictator and he can do what He likes as he doesn’t want the children dictating where we go
So he starts to an extent doing his own thing
5 days in he says he staying another week
I wasn’t happy and felt really upset and angry with him for effectively wrecking the rest of the holiday
We talked and I understood him
A couple of days in we had an argument then it all went downhill, and he was avoiding me. Put his return flight back and then didn’t arrive yesterday when he should. Now looking at Thursday. He says I’ve been a nightmare to be with and still loves me, but somewhere in this he had a one night stand. And he’s talking like what’s the problem. I have a major operation in just under two weeks to do a tummy flap reconstruction and instead of gaining weight I’m losing. I’m spiralling driving my friends mad and I’m weak
He says he is coming home not sure what he wants, give me a few days also to consider what I want and then we talk
I cannot fathom how the hell shagging someone while abroad is OK!
Please don’t be hard on me I can be strong but I need to get there
I have a lovely flat a much better job it’s cliche isn’t it. The man you never thought would but has form all over his life for pulling when drunk and I’ve always thought he liked a one night stand rather too much