So my partner and I have been together nearly two years,I am a 3rd year mental health nursing student living at home with my mother and he lived with me for about a year but has recently gone back home to look after his sick mother so right now we are long distance.I have an underactive thyroid and so tried several birth control pills but didnt react well to any of them.My partner didnt want to wear condoms.I tracked my cycle and was using the calendar method as contraception.The first time we got pregnant my partner was saying beforehand he wouldnt mind falling pregnant though it was only about 5 months into the relationship.When it happened he began dissociating completely and ultimately even though it was against my wishes we went to terminate.This was at about 5 weeks pregnant but ever since I've regretted it.I never went to counselling and my partner got on with things like it didnt affcet it as much as it did me.Fast forward to the present day I've found out im pregnant again and my partner again is pushing termination as the best option.He had tried pushing marriage as some sort of consolation prize for the loss of our child.Bare in mind im about 8 weeks now.He has hiw own issues going on as well as this whereby his childhood traumas are coming back to haunt him.His father left when he was young and he had an abusive stepfather.So I have realised far too late my partner is not long term material and before i get harsh responses for being irresponsible we all fall in love and do stupid things when in love.I am looking for peoples experiences being single mothers and whether it worked out for you as I do think my partner isnt going to be in the picture or if anyone had similar experiences they faced.Much appreciated and again please don't be too harsh I'm already hormonal and dealing with all of this by myself because i haven't told anyone.