I live separately from my DP of 8 years. We each have DCs from previous relationships so didn’t want to force them into the cons of sharing either.
I do miss him when he’s not here, but that can be a good thing, as I’m always pleased to see him when he comes over. I miss that feeling of being part of a team, and often wish we were in a different situation, but as things stand, it’s difficult to justify.
I definitely feel that our families (and indeed DP himself!) sometimes forget that we’re a couple, so invitations for dinner at the weekend etc don’t involve everyone. DP will often have impromptu Sunday lunch with his family, either at his house or theirs, and I’m not invited as I’m 20 miles away and it feels a bit ‘out of sight out of mind’. Sometimes I’m glad to be out of it, as I’m an introvert and wouldn’t want that sprung on me every weekend, but when I hear about it after the fact, I do feel a bit left out.
I feel like we aren’t seen as a ‘proper’ couple by friends and family, and maybe would like to get engaged just so that we have some legitimacy to our relationship! Still being someone’s “girlfriend” after 8 years feels a bit shit tbh! If we lived together we’d be married by now.
It is actually partially the finances keeping us apart, as I’m on a low income, so if we lived together and/or got married I’d lose my working tax credits and he’d end up having to subsidise that loss for me and supporting my DCs as well as his own. Although our joint living expenses would be less than our two separate residences, it would financially benefit me but not him if we moved in together. He talked about becoming a joint mortgage holder on my house to help me out, but because it would be his second home, he would have to pay thousands in stamp duty, so that has kept us apart too.
He wouldn’t necessarily object to offering me more support financially, but I imagine his DCs would, if their standard of living was lesser because of me and my DC. That could cause some resentment, and it would also leave me feeling beholden to him and shift the power balance.
My ideal for the future would be a big enough house that he can have his family get togethers and I can join in if I choose to, or take some space to myself when I need it. If we can’t do that, I think we’ll remain separate - him in a modest sized house and me in my own flat. I’m a little bit excited at the thought, but I know he’ll end up staying with me a lot if we do that as he’s rubbish at being on his own